The Let's Play Archive

Katawa Shoujo

by Falconier111

Part 21: Second Day’s the Worst

Update 19: Second Day’s the Worst

Katawa Shoujo OST – Afternoon

Track practice is just ending as I arrive at the track. The sun's beginning to dip low in the sky. Has it really gotten that late already?

EMI: "What are you doing down here, Hisao? Come to spy on me, have you?"

I give a shrug. To be honest, I'm not sure why I'm down here.

HISAO: "I didn't have anything better to do."

I figure that's about right. At the moment, Emi's the only person I can think of who I could visit.

EMI: "So I'm your last resort, am I? Nobody cool around, so I'll just go see Emi, is that what you thought?"

She actually looks angry. A chance for some teasing of my own presents itself.

HISAO: "Actually, yeah, I guess you are."

Emi pouts, widening her eyes to give the maximum amount of puppy-dog resemblance.

HISAO: "Kidding! I was kidding!"

EMI: "So you are down here to stalk me!"

Wait, what?

HISAO: "That's not what I meant! Why would I stalk you anyway? It's not like you require stalking. If you're not asleep or in class, you're down here, right?"

Emi laughs at this comment.

EMI: "Well, you're not all wrong, I suppose - but you forgot about eating. I do that too, you know."

I nod, conceding the point.

EMI: "Plus I hang out with Rin sometimes too... so really I might take some effort to stalk."

HISAO: "What do you two do together anyway? You don't seem to have a lot in common."

She puts her hands on her hips and assumes a superior air.

EMI: "That's what you think. I've got all sorts of hidden hobbies, you know."

HISAO: "Oh really? Like what?"

Emi puts her head to one side, as if she's trying to remember what it is she does in her free time.

EMI: "Well, Rin and I go out shopping sometimes."

I guess that makes sense. Emi's a girl, after all. But Rin?

HISAO: "Rin comes with you?"

EMI: "We usually swing by the art supply store. Plus she likes this music store that sells all kinds of weird sounding stuff. She says it helps focus her."

That makes a little more sense.

HISAO: "I see. Any other hidden hobbies?"

Emi wags a finger at me.

EMI: "Now now, why would I go and reveal all my dark secrets to you? We hardly know one another!"

Somehow I think that's all that Emi has in the way of hobbies. Still, I don't think my question's been answered.

HISAO: "Even if you do have a few hobbies, I still don't see why you hang out with Rin so much. I mean, she's kind of weird, isn't she?"

This comment causes Emi to laugh loudly.

EMI: "Ha! That's the understatement of the year!"

HISAO: "So why? I mean, you're a lot better at conversation and stuff, so I figure you'd hang out with a lot of people, but I think I've only ever seen you with Rin."

Emi seems unusually defensive.

EMI: "Hey, I hang out with plenty of people that aren't Rin! You just don't see me doing it because I'm not in your classes."

HISAO: "Okay, but that still doesn't explain why you hang out with Rin."

I'm not even sure why I want to know this. I guess it is because lunch was so strange. Emi shrugs, looking for a moment very Rin-ish.


EMI: "It's because we have similar outlooks."

If you were to ask me the least likely answer to my question, that would be it.

HISAO: "What do you mean?"

EMI: “It’s like…”

Katawa Shoujo OST - Standing Tall (Emi's Theme)

EMI: “Okay, Rin paints and stuff, right?"

HISAO: "Yes..."

I'm not sure where this is going.

EMI: "Well, I run."

HISAO: "And?"

EMI: "And... that's why we're similar."

HISAO: "... You lost me."

Emi frowns, as if trying to figure out her answer.

EMI: "Well, maybe it's that we do things for the same reasons."

HISAO: "Huh?"

EMI: "You know, we follow our passions."

HISAO: "So you're passionate about running and Rin's passionate about art, is that it?"

EMI: "Well, sort of. Let me think... Well, Rin explained it to me once, but I don't know how much of it I followed."

Not surprising. I think any explanation from Rin would probably confuse anyone.

EMI: "She says we both chase after an extreme. Like, she's always trying to find a new way to show a particular feeling or something. And I run because of the feeling I get from it. And since we don't allow ourselves to be slowed down by anything, we make a connection based on that."

HISAO: "What do you mean “slowed down by anything?”"

Emi looks surprised and points to her legs.

EMI: "You know, because I'm a runner. And Rin's a painter even without arms. So we respect each other's determination. And that's why we hang out. I think."

Well, I'm not sure that made any sense to me...but from Emi's sheepish expression, she's not sure about it either.

EMI: "Honestly, it's not something I think about much. We just get along - I think that's really all that matters."

I suppose she's got a point there. Another question strikes me, and since I've got nothing better to do, I ask it.

HISAO: "So what got you so into running, anyway?"

EMI: "Oh, I've been running since I was really little! My dad was a runner, and so as soon as I could walk, he started teaching me how to run.”

EMI: “It was our father/daughter thing, you know?”


EMI: “Our own mutual hobby."

A shadow crosses her face, and I'm shocked to see her looking... sad. Did something happen between them?

EMI: "Man, I don't have a lot of time left. Sorry, but I've got to get a few more laps in before I go see the nurse!"

She races off around the track, hair streaming in the wind. It seems to me she's going a lot faster than she was this morning. As she rounds the track, I catch a glimpse of her face. It's much the same as it was this morning, but her eyes seem to have taken on a harder edge. I guess she’s right.

I don't really know much about her. I watch her run for a little while, and then stand up to head back to my room.

EMI: "Hey!"

She spots me leaving and waves to catch my attention.

EMI: "Don't forget! Same time tomorrow morning, got it?"

HISAO: "Got it."

I head back to my room. Homework beckons.

I can't sleep. My body's tired, but my mind is kept awake, staring at the ceiling in the hollow darkness of my room. I grasp desperately for a thread of thought, hoping that I can run my brain into the ground. All I can think of is how I can't think of anything. This is not productive at all. I wonder if this is a side effect of my medication, though it seems odd for it to take so long to show up. Then again, maybe I'm just not as used to my new surroundings as I'd like to think. I don't know, but for whatever reason, I'm awake and I shouldn't be. This is ridiculous.

Ignoring my body's stiffness, I get out of bed and look at my clock. Four in the morning. Last time I checked it was only one, so maybe I slept a little. I don't know. I throw on some clothes and head out of my room. A walk might do me some good.

I'm surprised at how chill the air is compared to the relative warmth of the day. I can almost see my breath as I wander the campus, waiting for the sun to come up or for me to fall asleep. At this point, either option works for me.

I find myself at the track - where for the first time, Emi's not out running. I suppose that makes sense; it's too early, even for her. The bleacher seats are cold, but at this point I welcome the sensation. The sun is starting to show its face over the horizon, and I know with an awful certainty that I'll get no more sleep tonight. The sun's steadily strengthening rays start to warm me up, and I watch the dew on the ground begin to steam slightly. My mind calms down, a little.

Someone's shaking me.

EMI: "Hey, wake up!"

HISAO: "Huh? Where? Wha?"

I guess I fell asleep after all.

Katawa Shoujo OST - Raindrops and Puddles

EMI: "What are you doing out here? You're going to catch a cold or something!"

I rub my eyes and am confronted by Emi, who bends over me with a worried expression. I'm still a little groggy, so my response comes out in a mumble.

HISAO: "Couldn't sleep. Watched the sun come up."

EMI: "Sounds like something Rin would say."

I shrug, feeling the stiffness that comes with sleeping on a bench for a few hours.

HISAO: "Is it? I wouldn't know."

Emi grins a little at my (somewhat cranky) response.

EMI: "So, couldn't sleep, eh? Obviously we need to run you harder today!"

Even though I've only known her for about a week, this seems a very Emi-ish response to the problem.

HISAO: "Hey, my body was plenty exhausted after yesterday! My mind was just racing, that's all."

EMI: "I don't see the difference. If you run hard enough, your brain will get tired too."

I'm seriously questioning the wisdom of doing this first thing in the morning. I don't know if my grades will be able to handle me tiring my brain out like that. Emi pulls me up from the bleachers with surprising strength for someone her size.

EMI: "Now come on, Hisao! We've got work to do!"

I don't actually know if I'm up to this today, to be honest. I mean I obviously didn't get much sleep... and what sleep I got was on the bleachers!

HISAO: "I don't know...should I really be running?"

Emi glares at me. Good heavens.

EMI: "What are you talking about? Of course you should be running! How else do you expect to work out the kinks? You've been sleeping on the bleachers, for heaven's sake! The best way to get that soreness out is to run around a little. Now stop hiding in the bleachers and get down here!"

There's no arguing that. I'm pretty sure she'd kill me if I didn't do as she said. I get to my feet and hop down to the track. The sun is warming things up rather nicely, I think. Emi and I begin to stretch out, and I find myself once again hard pressed not to stare. If this is how I have to wake up every day, I might be able to get used to this.

EMI: "You know Hisao, it's not polite to stare."

HISAO: "I wasn't staring! I swear!"

Emi raises an eyebrow and considers me for a minute, as if evaluating my response. There's a brief moment where I'm afraid for my life.

But then she smiles and laughs, shaking her head slowly.

EMI: "Honestly, you didn't have to deny it so strenuously."

In response, I clap my hands together and go for a change of subject.

HISAO: "So! That's enough stretching, right?"

Emi gives a casual shrug.

EMI: "Do you feel stretched? That's really how you tell."

Well, I do feel up to the run, if that's what she means.

HISAO: "Yeah, I feel ready to go."


EMI: "Same as yesterday, okay? We'll just run for a mile at a steady pace. Don't worry about going really fast, just worry about keeping the pace, got it?"

HISAO: "You're the boss."

Katawa Shoujo OST – Hokabi

Emi grins again, and we take off around the track. ... ... I think I'm going to die. We're not even done with the first lap, and my legs are on fire. My breath is coming in ragged gasps. I can feel sweat pouring down my brow, and we've only just now rounded the second turn.

EMI: "Come on, Hisao! You've got three more laps to go!"

I can't do this... I can't do this. I can't do this! I think I might hurl. Somehow we're on the second lap. Emi's not even sweating. How can she do this so effortlessly? For some reason I'm still moving. She's like a machine. Third lap. What happened to the second?

EMI: "Almost there, Hisao!"

Liar! We've got another two! Nothing to be done.

HISAO: "I... ca... can't... do... this."

Emi whirls around and begins running backwards. Her face is a mask of anger that surprises me.

EMI: "Never say that! If you say that, you'll have already lost. Keep moving! If you're alive, you can keep moving, dammit!"

Whoa, language. We're on the fourth lap now. She really seems to want me to keep going. Legs move. Move. Move. They feel so sluggish. I'm in mud, or molasses, or tar. I can't go on. I'll go on.

EMI: "Final stretch, Hisao! Give it all you've got!"

I pump my legs as fast as they'll go. They keep refusing to obey my commands. Somehow, I keep moving. Somehow, I finish.

EMI: "That's it, Hisao! I knew you had it in you!"

The anger Emi showed a lap ago is gone, replaced with pride. She's positively radiant, like she just won the gold medal or something. I stagger to a stop and fall to my hands and knees, gasping for air. My heart is pounding far harder than it has in a long time.

(Sudden Silence)

I don't think it's done this since...

Oh God.

Please slow down, heart. Just slow down. Stop racing. I cough, and for some reason, feel a grin crossing my face. So this is how I die, huh? Trying to stay healthy? How ironic.

I'm all ready to give up right there. But then, I feel my heart slow down. Two hands grab under my arms and tug upwards.

I look up and see Emi standing over me, with a mixture of delight and worry.

EMI: "On your feet! Come on, you'll never catch your breath that way."

Somehow, I manage to stand. I try to raise my arms above my head, but they feel like lead. I start to walk around the track while Emi keeps close to me, like she's afraid I'll fall over or something. She may not be far off. I feel terrible, and say so. Emi laughs.

EMI: "But you finished, didn't you? You said you couldn't, but you did. Isn't that worth it?"

I'm not sure, and I don't really have the breath to say so. But that small grin I felt on my face earlier hasn't left. So what if my heart's weak? I still survived this morning. Maybe I'll survive tomorrow, too. As soon as it becomes apparent that I'm not going to suddenly keel over, Emi takes off on her sprints. I don't know how the hell she can manage to sprint after running a mile, but I guess she's in much better shape than me. Once again, as I walk around the track, I can't help watching Emi sprint.

It's weird, but she's like a different person when she's pushing herself. Last time I noticed her eyes, but this time it's her mouth that catches my attention. She's not wearing her normal grin. She's still smiling, but there's a tightness to it.

It's almost grim, like she's fighting a losing battle but doesn't care. She seems to be running harder, like she did yesterday. Sweat has started to pour down her face, but she keeps going. Her mouth finally opens as she can no longer get enough air through her nose. As she passes me once more, legs pumping, arms swinging in time, and her lips slightly parted...

She looks beautiful.

Katawa Shoujo OST - School Days

After we've both taken some laps around the track to cool down, Emi changes back to her usual self. The transformation I saw in her is gone.

EMI: "Not bad today, Hisao."

There's almost admiration in her voice.

HISAO: "What do you mean? I would have stopped if you hadn't yelled at me."

Emi colors a little, seemingly embarrassed about her outburst.

EMI: "Sorry about that, I just... can't stand to see people give up. Especially about something like this. Saying “I can't go on” is silly when you're obviously going on while you're saying it. That's what this is all about."

HISAO: "What, saying silly things?"

Emi sticks her tongue out at me.

EMI: "Idiot. I mean showing that you're alive."

Showing I'm alive, huh? I didn't know it had to be so painful. But it does feel pretty good, despite that.

EMI: "Besides, this is one of the hardest days."

HISAO: "What do you mean?"

EMI: "Whenever you start a workout, it's difficult the first day, really hard the second day, and then the third day is easier. You'll still get days that are really hard, but they'll pop up less and less."

HISAO: "So this will eventually get really easy, huh?"

EMI: "Yeah, of course. But then you have to increase the difficulty, or you'll never get ahead. You'll just get complacent, and you'll lose the sense of accomplishment."

HISAO: "So I'll have to run more than just four laps, huh?"

EMI: "Yep! But not for a while - you'll have to be careful, you know."

A thought strikes Emi, and her face lights up.

EMI: "Got it!"

HISAO: "Got what?"

EMI: "You can come with me to see the nurse! That way you won't fall over dead or anything!"

How charming.

HISAO: "Um... when?"

EMI: "Right now, of course! You'll need a shower and everything, right? We don't have much time, then!"

Grabbing my hand, she's off, pulling me along with her.