Part 218: 1/26/10

1/26/10

I met with Aigis on the roof again after school.



……
> Aigis suddenly became quiet.
I’m sorry about last time…
Perhaps my heart is becoming more and more like that of a human…
But as a result… I have realized something.
The heart and body are inseparable…
A human heart can only function normally within a human body…

I… I told her something that wasn’t strictly true. I don’t really think it was a lie, though, because she wasn’t really asking about what she was asking about.



Have you ever come here alone with a male before, Aelita-san…?
Perhaps you gazed out at the view and spoke quietly…
…Oh, I didn’t mean to pry.
I was just curious…
Not yet…
I see…
Oh, is that… because I take up so much of your time?
……
> Aigis looks at you apologetically…

I’m usually so good with words, but lately with Aigis it seems like I don’t know how to get across how I feel.



I thought that perhaps I was spending too much time with you…
There are many people who would like to be with you…
I’m sure you have people you want to be with as well.
If that is the case, please tell me right away!
I wouldn’t want to become an obstacle preventing you from becoming closer to another person…
……
> Aigis sounds as if she’s trying to convince herself.
I don’t mind you being here.
……

I mean how do I tell her there’s no place I’d rather be right now?



That must be why when I come here after school… sometimes I find a couple alone here.
They might be leaning against one another, or embracing…
I never gave it a second thought before, but lately… It pains me to see them…
I have probably come to realize that this is a sort of connection I can never attain…
I am not a male… I’m not even human…!
The closer my heart becomes to that of a human, the more I realize how much sets us apart…!
Just because my heart is developing doesn’t mean I can actually become human…
I have known this from the beginning, of course.
But… only recently have I realized something.
I have another wish, one just as precious as my desire to live…

How do I just tell her I feel the same way?



> Aigis seems very distressed…
…I’m sorry.
I lost control of myself again…
But this feeling that you are precious to me will never change…
No matter what happens…
> AIgis is gazing at you intensely…

I should have just said something, anything.



No… that’s not right.
Until now, I have always referred to you as something precious to me.
But that is not the correct way to express this feeling.
However…
If I were to use the proper words… I know it would never come true, and I…!
> Aigis ran off…
> You decide to go back to the dorm.

Then again maybe this isn’t something that you can tell someone.



Newscaster: According to the village legend, eggs like these are signs of extreme misfortune.
The villagers are becoming terrified that a catastrophe is about to happen.

Maybe, by continuing to be with her, I can show her how I feel…



So my Career Counseling was really confusing.
But, I know that if I’m with you, everything will be okay.