Part 184: 12/7/09-12/9/09

12/7/09

You know, I have the best friends in the world.



Things have been pretty crazy lately, huh… No one's in the mood to talk, either.
Cheer up.
Right…
I suppose that's best.

I mean I'm doing my best to try and cheer people up.



It's almost the end of the year… Let's not ruin our last month of the year together with laziness, okay?
Remember, there's an exam next week. Though didn't you guys just have exams…? Time flies.
The material on the exam begins on page 160, and will include what we go over in today's lesson.
Which is… the definition of allotropy.
"The property of some elements to exist in two or more forms that are chemically identical, yet physically discrete."
…Get it? I bet there's at least one allotrope you guys are familiar with.
Let's see if you know what I'm talking about, Aelita.
Which allotrope is formed by three oxygen atoms?
Ozone.
Wow, good job. I'm sure you'll do fine on the exam.
Every living being needs oxygen to survive.
And everything on the planet needs ozone, too.
You know how toxic UV rays have been eating away at the ozone layer, right?
Due to the environmental destruction, there's less and less ozone…
I probably have nothing to worry about, but you guys might.
So watch out, okay?

And here's Fuuka trying to do the same for me.



……
U-Um…
Try to cheer up.
Thanks.
Oh, you're welcome…
……
Sorry, I guess I'm the one who's the most confused.

Anyway, I'm not telling them I've made up my mind yet, because I don't want to pressure anyone.



Yes, I have.
…Me, too. It's not an easy decision to make.

I want everyone to see what we have to do on their own.



Could you ever have imagined that we'd be in this situation?
Never in a million years.
Neither could I.
However, know that it is happening. We must decide what we are going to do about it.

Which means letting them think about what they have to live for.



…so I don't have to think about what's going to happen…

That's not something anyone else can decide for you.



This is probably what Chidori meant when she said she was afraid…
Now, I finally understand…
……

As for me, I don't think I've ever wanted to live more.



They think everything's normal…
They think everything's normal…
I envy them…
Ignorance is bliss, huh?

I've got something I've got to do with whatever life I've got left.



But without a future… I can't make a training schedule.
Dammit… I don't know what to do.

Even if it would buy us a little more time, that life wouldn't even be worth it if I threw away the reason I've found for being here.

12/8/09

Fuuka's braver than she thinks, I wish she wouldn't be so down on herself all the time.



Um… Have you decided what you're going to do…?
Yeah, I have.
You're so brave, Aelita-chan. But, I'm scared…
Even Ken-kun is down… What are we going to do…?

Not much going on, I've been heading to the shrine most days. I figure it can't hurt.

12/9/09

I wish things could have been different, that Aki and I could have both been what the other really needed.



We have so much to worry about, but we're still going to school as if nothing's changed…
True.
But, we'll have to make up our minds sooner or later.
Otherwise, it'll be too late.

I love him so much, and I know he loves me.



When I say, "electromagnetism," Lorentz Force and Fleming's left-hand rule should immediately come to mind.
I won't be giving partial credit if you write "right-hand rule," got it? Okay, let's move on.
Sorry, what?
…Are you asking me if there's any tricks to getting smarter?
Sure, there's an easy one! It doesn't even require any memorization. Here it is… STUDY!
Honestly… how could you not know that?
Write this down, 'cause I'm about to erase it! Come on!

But I know there's someone else he should be with, even if both of them don't see it, and I don't quite feel right being in the way of that.



It's been a week since Ryoji-kun was here…
I couldn't sleep for three days after that.
Do you think it's weird for me to be this scared?
It can't be helped…
Well, I've come to realize something…
You don't really know how much you take your life for granted…
…until there's a possibility you might lose it.

Hah, but I guess that can all wait for when we live through this.