Part 185: 12/10/09

12/10/09

We got together tonight to talk about what we'd been thinking.



Yes.
I see… Well, I feel the same as the others.
We can't continue on like this… We should talk with everyone tonight.

To see if we'd really made any progress to a decision we could all be happy with.



> Everyone has gathered…
Well, it' s been a week. What're we going to do?
…You okay, Fuuka?
You just seem so calm…
We have to make a decision…
I mean, it's been such a drag around here lately, and no one will go to Tartarus…
…You're right.
We humans are quite resilient. We can adapt to any situation, given enough time.
So, how about it, everyone? Why don't we talk about it?
……
…Have you made your decision, Sanada-san?
No…
But, I don't plan on running away.
So, you're going to fight Nyx?
…I don't know. I mean, it's supposedly undefeatable.
What about you? What are your thoughts on it?

I'm going to be honest, though, I don't think we have.



It's quite a sobering thought.
I don't want to suffer… and I don't want to kill Ryoji.
But, either way, we still die. So, there is no simple answer.
Then, do we all agree that we don't want to hurt Ryoji-kun?
Is that how you feel?
Well, I, um…
It's okay, Fuuka. I mean, it's not natural to choose how you're going to die…
What about you, Junpei? Have you decided?
No…
What's the matter? Scared?
…What the hell do you mean by that? You think this is a joke?
Junpei, I…
We're going to die! Of course I'm scared!
You all need to wake up! This is death we're talking about here!
> Everyone remained silent, having nothing to say…
Then, what do you want to do?
Do you want to kill him?

I… I just have to be strong, for everyone.



Aelita…
……
Did you never notice…?
You had that thing inside you and you didn't notice…?
You're the one that raised it… You're the one that brought about the Fall…
Junpei…!
Can't… Can't you do anything about it!?
I can't help it…
Stop it, Junpei! It's not her fault…
Her carrying it is the only reason we even have this choice!
I know that, dammit! But…
In my head, I might know…
> Junpei is biting his lip…
But even though I know thinking about it might not solve anything… I'm still scared, dammit!
I know how you feel, Junpei-kun. I'm scared too.
Yeah, we're all scared.
Yes…

Because Junpei is right, in the end it's all on me one way or the other.



Me either…
I'm sorry I teased you, Junpei. I was just trying to lighten up the situation.
Personally, I don't want to forget everything.
I've learned so much since coming here…
Yuka-tan…
I'm sorry I kept yelling like that…
I don't think any of us could have stood up to you right now, Junpei…
So don't worry about it. Right, Aelita?
…I'm sorry.
You don't have to apologize…
I know this isn't your fault…
…I didn't mean to lash out at you earlier.
Alright, I don't think we're prepared to make a decision just yet.
Ryoji said he'll be back on New Year's Even, so we still have some time to think about it.
…So until then, let's just try to live our lives as normally as possible.

It's on me whether or not we fight on or succumb to the night.



He was at that shrine all by himself.
…I don't want to live in the past anymore.
Shinjiro-san let me live for a purpose…
……

Before I don't know what I would have done.



Fitness Expert: "Aiyah" is a very common word. It means "No way!"
That's all for this week! Don't let the cold and the Apathy Syndrome get you! Back to the news!

Maybe I would have considered the easy way out.



I thought my dad was a loser, but now I know how he felt…
Dude, this totally sucks…

Now, though, I can't do that.



……
He'd probably fight against the end of the world with all he had…
Yeah, that's what he would do.

I've just got too much to do still.



You know, about how Ryoji-kun was inside you…
You're still you. The same person now as you were before.
…Right?

I… I just really hope they all come to the same conclusion as I do.



But I was wrong…
And if we kill him, we will lose all our memories…

The conclusion that life is worth living.



I wonder what he's doing now…
I wonder if he's still crying...