Part 219: 1/27/10

1/27/10

Aigis and I went back up to the rooftop after school.



Perhaps it’s because the sun is lower in the sky, and you don’t have to look up to see it.
I’ve gotten used to this view… But it’s never exactly the same.
…The same could be said of one’s daily routine.
Or of life itself…
The fated day is almost here…
January 31st…
Yeah, huh.
I come here in order to think.
“I can’t let this end… I must protect it.” Thoughts like that…
> Aigis is smiling.

While I’d been thinking through how to tell her my feelings, she’d been doing the same.



I thought about the old lady and Mewlie-san… as well as Kiyoshi-san…
I wonder if Mewlie-san was alone until the moment of her death…
Someplace no one could find her…
I think… the old lady wanted to be there for her at the end.
……
To live means to be connected to other people, but life is finite, and farewells are inevitable.
It’s sad to consider, but you and I must part one day as well…
And then… I’ll never be able to see you again…
……
There’s so much in life that cannot be understood… It’s filled with pain…
You meet others, forge relationships, and spend time with them… then they are gone, leaving you behind.
Leaving you alone…
……
When I consider that, I can no longer hold back my feelings…

She’d thought over life, and what it means to her.



That’s just how it is.
No two viewings are alike. No two days are alike.
It is natural for everything to disappear, return, and remain in a constant state of change…
Life is finite and ephemeral.
That is precisely what makes it precious to us, showing us that we shouldn’t waste it…
It is a miracle for any two like-minded people to meet within the chaotic flux…
That’s why forging bonds and relationships is a source of happiness.
That is the root cause of… the joys of being alive…
It’s not a cold, but a warm kind of sorrow… Shining more brightly as a result of its limits…
…If I think of it that way, there’s no time to falter or hesitate.
I need to tell you…
Even if my wishes are unfulfilled, I have to share my true feelings…
……
> You feel Aigis’ strong resolve…

And she found her words.



I want to be by your side…
I want to be closer to you than anyone else.
I don’t want you to love someone else… I don’t want that, even if it’s what would make you happy!
I know that I’m a machine. I know… that I can’t be touched.
I know that you should find happiness with a man…!
But, but… I don’t know why…!
All I can see or think about is you, Aelita-san…
I feel like I’m going to break down…
Aelita-san…
> You sense Aigis’ strong affection towards you…

There was one thing she said that I didn’t agree with, though, because I’m sure my hands don’t go right through hers.



> You gently hold Aigis’ shaking hand…
> It is surprisingly warm…
……!!
……
> She shook your hand off…
……
I-I’m sorry. I can’t… think of anything to say…
I wonder if something really has broken inside of me…
I feel hot, like something is burning inside me…
……
Umm… W-We should go back.
……
I-I’ll go ahead. I… I can’t look at you now.
Um…
S-See you later…
> You decide to go back to the dorm separately.

Hah, my life really is just complete insanity. The world’s ending in four days and I’m in love with a robot girl.



Newscaster: She was subsequently stabbed by one of the youth, as the rest of them fled the scene.
Doctors say the woman was lucky, and that her wounds will take around one week to heal.

Didn’t see that coming when I moved here.